Nice. Naive. Beautiful

I MISS YOU SO MUCH

They always tell us to dream big. Reach for the stars, but they never tell you how much it hurts if you miss and fall. I had dreams, I had hope, but it's all in the past now. Today, I just deal with picking up the pieces that are left from me jumping off the cliff. I did what they said; I tried to reach the stars, I think I might have even felt the heat of one, but I wasn't able to hold it, and that's when I realized the fall was going to be painful. So now, for the next 22 miles, there's absolutely nothing. I'm just walking a straight, continuous and empty line, trying to find the end of it. Trying to understand. I cry, I laugh, I scream, but nothing comes out right. So now, I'll just walk in silence, and wait for this to go away. I hope this goes away. Please go away.

I love to play in the rain, spinning around with my eyes shut, imagining that everything around dissapears and it's just me and you. I love to feel the cold winter wind hug me and whisper secrets in my ear. I love looking up at the night sky and watching every star shine as bright as it can. I love going somewhere, and not knowing where or when or how. I just love simple things, a flower, a hug, a few nice words. I love when I can count on someone no matter what. I love to listen to a great song, knowing that someone put their heart and soul into creating a great melody and lyrics that tell a story. I love to dream. I'm not afraid to dream. I love walking as slow as possible in the middle of rush hour, with a big smile on my face, just to let someone know that it's ok to take time and smell the roses. And I would love to share all of these things with you.

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind


Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

this little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine...

It's funny how just one little change of events makes me realize so many things in my life. One moment in time, one second of that night, made me understand so much. It's a great feeling. It's rare. Not too many people are able to understand the complex meaning of life. Not too many are able to understad what things are going to be like, but for one moment, I was able to feel this. It was stupid, it was great. It was meaningless, it meant everything. It was nothing, it was something. It just made me think. And I proved that when we give things away, we get more. You showed me the plan, my purpose. I've been looking for this for so long now, and when I finally truely gave this desire away, you showed me so much more. Good things are happening. Great things are comming, and I want to be the first in line to find out exactly what these things are going to be.

sweet relief!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! strange, but necessary!!